Forgive and Forget

I cannot find you  
But that's not really new  
I never could find you for anything  
Your eyes on the kingdom  
Always calling on Jesus 
But I never could find you for anything  

Don't look back  
But I looked back  
And saw the clues I'd failed to track  
The sky was black  
Your soul was black  
You stomped the crack and broke my back  

I cannot find you  
But that's not really new  
I never could find you for anything  

Rise up early  
Say a prayer  
Straighten my skirt  
Cover my hair  
Open my home  
Evangelize  
Cook a meal  
Now memorize  
Invite a friend  
Call on the Lord  
Time to serve  
Pray read the word  
It's truth school time  
Now prophesy  
Twist up my soul  
Ignore your lies 

Trash talk-- I'm taunted  
In my head-- I'm hunted 
In the mirror always searching  
For any sign of your ghost  
Don't look now  
Wipe the sweat from my brow  
Damn it all, I think I'm haunted 

I cannot find you  
But that's not really new  
I never could find you for anything  

One, two three 
Jesus lives in me 
Four, five, six, 
Eyes blink-- playing tricks 
Seven, eight, nine 
Watch the water turn to wine  
Ten, eleven, twelve 
Shut up, deny yourself 
 
You asked for my soul 
Gave me shit and called it gold 
And I helped you shovel it 
You asked for my soul 
Gave me shit and called it gold 
But Fuck. That. Shit.  

I think I forgive you  
I just need to forget you  
I cannot forget you for anything